Losing Your Memory . . .

In nine days I would have been celebrating my 16th wedding anniversary.  The month leading up to it is always a rough month for me.  Why? I've asked myself this question many times. At the beginning it was merely because I held on to the fairy tale I had dreamed for my marriage.  Now I think about how I've wasted the years since the end of it and now.  

One question remains the same.  Why was I not good enough to fight for?  However this year I merely want to say to the fairy tale ending is that "you're losing your memory now".  With that being said I pray for the next date to be one filled with the feeling of being worth the fight.