Although he wasn't a great dad and he had a lot of demons to deal with or skeletons if you will. He had his moments of genuine fatherly love. I hated when the song would come on because I knew we had to have our "moment". Every parent wants just the two of you moments to share when a song comes on or something else is associated with it. He wasn't any different. No child likes those moments after like the third or forth time well not until they're old and have their own kids then they hold those moments close. I was no different. I know now that after the song would play my step dad would tell me not to grow to be just like him. He knew he wasn't doing a great job but yet I think he earnestly wanted me to be better at it than he was. I think I am but I'm sure there's proof that I'm not that great at the whole parent thing so I'll just live in ignorance where there's all that bliss!
However back to the song ... I don't think any parent would want their kid to grow to be just like them. I know that I at least would pray to God that Hailee was nothing like me grown up. Dear word why would I want that handicap placed on her. I do hope that she does some of my good qualities. There's got to be some. I do hope that she is everything she is now. Well maybe not as awkward. Awkward meant in the most loving way possible. I pray she doesn't turn into the stereo typical suburban wife. I hope she doesn't look at her husband as the ATM only. I hope she doesn't fall into the catty world of high school but for adults. I hope she stays as accepting of everyone and as non judgemental as she is today.
So yeah Harry hit it right on the nose. As far as warning parents what not to do as far as time with your kids. Time spent loving your kids and having beautiful yet dreadful moments is worth so much more when you're older. Yeah they'll go away but we have to insure that they'll want to come back to continue making great moments. I hope I at least accomplish that even if everything else I do in parenting her is a total crash and burn! I pray she wants to come home and make more moments.
Or I'll have ruined my one chance of getting put in a decent home at 80!
